I'm a Kadazan

      Well, according to the title above, I'm going to let my significant native out so people can truly understand the native, what most important is I'm one of it....Talking about it, too many people I mean outsider thinking, most of them speculate that this Kadazan was a Religion....If you are A Malaysian... this is for you... Are you really that dumb??? if not...then let me introduce,perhaps you should just search or click Kadazan which is one of a Race/ethnic that exist in Malaysia perhaps to most of Sabahan..the click probably bring you to it wikipedia...hehe..Well, what was the purpose of having the wikipedia if we are going to explain by ourself, perhaps we'll get bored with it..reality is, the Kadazandusun are use broadly in defining the both Kadazan and Dusun as they have almost the same language which the pronunciation was the only thing that differentiate the both of it...I dont know about anything else...
        Okay too much talking about the native..now I'm going to present myself indoing this life as a Kadazan-ian should I put the -ian?? hahaha...just for fun...okay...overall I'm proud to be born as Kadazan as my ethnicity, perhaps I will accept any of those etnicity as I born with It... I will try to embrace it... I'm not that kind of person who reject the walk of life that chosen for us...I'm honor to born as one of them but I didnt have full standard qualification to re-present this ethnicity to people eyes... as a matter fact,  maybe my qualification of degree was a translater....hahaha..am I kidding...okay...be serious...
            I say "I didn't spoke fluently in my native language which is Kadazan but what really matters was I do understand It and I can project to outsiders"
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The short conversation~
            My Dad Says "How can you even protect or save our native language if you did not start talking with your tongue, then, the next generation will not cover with the language anymore its ahead to extinction, Confirm!!"

             I stumble when talking back..With a little voice I say "at least I understand it".


            "There is no guarantee in just to understand it, you have to speak it loud so you wouldn't forget it" my Dad says back and it ended the conversation.

      The trouble-ish conversation starts when I talk to my sibling with Bahasa mix  English... hahha...the funny part is my Dad call my lil sis and bro as "Pilak/Philipin-ian" if they were talking using bahasa... I use to be called that name but I just ignore it..so the Morale values was to keep our family in together was to be faith..

   For that I'll Introduce myself in my native Language
"Ngaan oku nopo nga ie Ben Bronson Blasius, au oku apandai do minuat Kadazan" "fail oku tii...ahahah"
"ei toihan oku nopo nga ei basic dau id Kadazan, au oku apandai do mimboos id atarang tapi karatii oku num id tuhun nopo mimboos sabap nopo nga aiso id onu-nunu id suang tutak ku num ontok mimboos om tuhun.. miaga nopo Id tanak do baru balajal do minuat om mimboos" Done

     Ok..seriously,it is bad...hahaha...atleast I make an effort to show that I am a Kadazan...I'm not going to explain it.just ask your Kadazandusun friends...hahaha..I do fell embarrass with that petition I wrote because it was not my best...I have to improve a lot...perhaps not only Kadazan but English too..grammar sucks yeah..atleast i know it and I have it...
Do you???

When "I DID" took part...

    First thing I will mention was I study in cooking major since I was in high school which took part and made me a cook but not yet a Chef. I did feel the passion somehow I did not want too talking about passion.. My purpose was only to let you guys know me better which I want to discuss what thing (work) I capable of...ok let me begin...I can be

Cook(yes you know it,I prefer patiserrie)

Painter 

Sewer

Carpenter

Sports ( I did play soccer and takraw, apparently I play it as my minor sport which I didnt focus into and it did lead me to lack of skill and I fell insecure to let people judge me while playing because I play roughly (i didnt care if you are big or small...yes(you can asked people I closely know, Basketball same as soccer,badminton(common),netball, what else(later I write it down)

Peting(just an amature which I just started to a month ago)

Babysit(I do love kids, a silent one, else STFU)

Design(I spend a lot of time in designing my family home....but for sure it costly, I want to get a job and do a lot of thing)

Singing (I dont know about this but everyone surrounded me says I have a good voice and should join any competition...duhhh...I must gather my spirit and boldness first)

Gardening(none of my garden made vege are grow yet...best luck for me)

Stylist(walla....I did spend a time before going out preparing my outfits and other sibling or cousins or someone else outfits...I love fashion and I do admit I am metro-sexual...before this I am insecure about this lots of thought that man on fashion should be gay or sissy or something hidden....not to judge anyone but duhh...the thought should be demolish and flushed away....now a days, fashions are everywhere... Is it David Beckham or P.diddy are they gay or sissy too??? Hell No... Its Metro-sexual..you are so far away behind if didn't know what it is...or should I call LAME?? get your own dictionary...hahaha....come on people...just embrace the fact that fashion are growing towards future...whao...too much explanation there)

*mmm...what else....ok thats all...hehe.. this is my first write which mean I didnt re-write this post. Mean = I just wrote any of that words that glance in my mind this time...hahaha...

R.I.P Pet

Currently in Sad mode;

arggghh..less than a month...are you kidding me??????I've lost my little baby yesterday....yes I lost my puppies last night(22/Feb/2011)...i'm so freaking sad right now.... arrgghh....Its like I lose my entire life because I already accept the welcome-ness of this puppies with a very big heart and I've consider he as family which close to me just like my own child.... OMG.. What is this feeling I felt right now.... Am I feeling guilty?? YES...I DO and I AM...totally....I felt so unpleasant because I still thinking about him...I miss him yet I know I just buried him this morning,I am mourning for him... I dont know if I am ready to just let it go this fast...I think I cant...Is this the meaning of true love....My heart cried but I didnt drop any tears yet...Im so pissed, how can he left me this fast as I just started to love him... how could he....Whose to blame... yes.. I do feel very guilty....I cant blame anyone....I am totally sad and I need some privacy right now.. I have to rethink what I've done wrong...oh..please GOD...but what can I do the best for him now is to let him go and pass by as I know he is walking to heaven now....heheh...yes...maybe...am I over-react or what? but still...I always remember him...duhh...so what if you call me sissy just the fact that I am so fragile about this... I dont care... I have the heart.... atleast I manage to confront this feeling and you know what...I feel a bit release...I watched his videos and pictures on the first week I took when I adopt him until he learn how to walk and run.....arrggghhh...It makes me sad....I feel my eyes got watering but the tears still didn't come.....am I too ego to just let my feeling out...?????? I dont want to attach any of his picture...because it makes me sad....arggh.....owhh...you know what, I forgot to mention how he died in sudden....it is because of his little brother...as I mention on the previous post... his lil bro did sucked my dog penis till it got swollen... yes... that was the part where I am Guilty As Charge (GAC), I didnt even try to separate them as I know they both will cry seeking for each other.....OMG...I didnt even know that he is in pain....So Sorry Puppies... Its my fault..I will take care your brother for you then since you were in heaven...please pinch me or bite me to wake me up from this nightmare....I hope it is...I wish I can turn back time...Doraemon....I need you.. JK

P/S text me when you have arrive ok...take care.... Loads of love from me....you were everything.... bye-bye..<3 

Its been A while

its been a While I didnt post a blog...I just dont know what to write down on..so I figure I'll just blah..blah..Recently, the puppy just learn how to walk which are so annoying, I like them to just sit at a place and remains quite... apparently apart of know how to walk, the puppies also know how to express their feeling by shouting.... arrggghh... so annoying... I cant stand when they shouting from outside of my house and told me to let them in... argghh.... so we now in progress of defining their name by their characteristic....mmm..my dad called one of the puppies Hachiko which the previous late-dog name who died because of unknown disease.... I think I like to call my Puppies "bonbon" as in french which mean "candy"... The reason why I named him that name was because he or both of them like to suck their sibling penises apparently in 69 ways...hahahah... Its so funny... and my dog penis swollen because of being suck for a very long time...hahah... aiyah....should have separate them lorh...but they didnt want to....they will shouting over and over to find their sibling..... so thats all.... will hear from me soon...

The Chinese New Year cont.

Ok...yesterday I was blah blah nonsense regard the Angpao... so I did mention to upload some of picture of celebrating the Chinese New Year...hehehe... so we went to my mum colleague place which is at the hall near the Chinese temple...whao....it is cool though... so here's the picture.... I try to seek the Tanglung(Chinese Lamp) just for fun...but I did not manage to snap much of it....plus just got a RM2 angpao...thanks to aunty..
*Still Happy 

The Mummy

The Sibling

The Chinese New Year

Heck Yeah, I got Angpao (money as gift put in RED tiny envelope) which is traditionally Chinese words where broadly used among Malaysian. This Angpao were meant to be given by those whose are married... so the interesting part was I'm not. So I can accept those Angpao without any doubt...hahaha yes... I just got RM10 from my grandfather...hehehe... why I am Happy even though it was in little amount.... Who said It was little...it is still money right even it was RM1,I will still happy, perhaps It is enough for me to buy my need and other companion which might be useful later. Perhaps I'll save it for any chance I might think something later...What crap I talk about...stop Blah...blah..Yes My honored granpa which I love... somehow I didn't yet visit them which to be exact I receive the angpao via Mummy...hehe...so Later I upload the Pictures of us celebrating the Happiness..ok... toddles ... oh Btw...

*it is the year of Rabbits for who didn't know...so Hail to them,

*Still Happy :-)

The Monkey

Its time for the monkey to be release from his cage... mm mm...eventually he got out by itself...hahaha ok talking about the monkey...let me introduce the details of this family member, His name is Tupal a.k.a Won Soo... got for Indonesian and Korean name... We just named it.... well, he is ver annoying in person.... he like to scratch and bite me softly by mean harmless... he is good-boy though...the hard part was to told him to get into his cage... hahaha.... well, I dont mind if he is not in his cage, but, the only habit does he have was to scare and harm little human by mean Kid.... hehehe...my Little brother scare to him...okay this is the picture where I spend a few minute of with him....

A new Member in Family

Yesterday..ok....this was the first time I adopt a homeless puppy which by mean on my own... he is "he" and didnt named it yet.. my Cousin and I took them on the road crawling seeking for food which their mother who we didnt know, so we decided to adopt them because of our animal Instinct for pitifulness which obviously inherited from our parents plus the puppies were very adorable and rarely colored... so we took three of five of them which we only took the male one..hehe...pity for the female, perhaps they didn't have to compete with their siblings anymore, so about the puppies, we took the two white puppies and a brown colored, and yet my family are surprised about the puppy indeed happy...heheh, they all accepted the puppy with a big open hand... hahaha... yeah...mission complete..the annoying part was the puppy cried a lot, I cant stand it likely he likes to be hugged.. so I decided to bring him to bed with me... so as I adopted him yesterday, It would be his Birthday then...hahaha (2/2/2011) remember this..this is my puppy only, Later I capture the 3 musketeers altogether..