Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Leaf who give hope??


I do believe in luck.. some people may find it ridiculous and laugh at it… but I didn’t.. What about you… well, it depends… Luck made me so happy where I find either I might or not have the chance of being luck on that day. So, I’m going to share my taught that I do believe so. Its about “The Four Leaf Clover” for some of you did not know perhaps never know this kind of believe never exist.. well I guess after you know it maybe you will find it interesting…. Hahaha.. JK
If you unpurposely or the best way to describe it accidentally find this leaf, it gives you four signs of good fortune as well deliver the luck to you which consist of;
a)      Fame
b)      Wealth
c)       Love <3
d)      Health 

It is your lucky day if you find this leaf as it is one in every ten thousand. Wow… isn’t that so interesting. Its like finding a needle in a bulk of dry grass… so rare right… It represents the courage of a person.  Somehow, as far that I concerned, the horticulturist have created varieties of its tree that can produce lots more four leaf clovers and some of it produce 21 leaf.. Isn’t that apathetic…
Despite, the European and those North American people still subscribe this belief which they believe that the leaf has some kind of magical power which can change a person days. They also believe that if you have plant that produce it, you must never be part with the plant (be near it every day) as it will absorb your little luck for that day…that’s all, so people, better start to find it, the clover waiting..

“ some time you don’t need to find it, as it will come to you”

Cheap2Bexpensive


               Last night I was terrible, I'm like sleeping the whole day without doing anything, this is because I go to bed at 5 am... such another day wasted by me... today I'm going to talk about Me and my closet... I dont need to wear an expensive cloth, I dont need it at all, I like it cheaper, long lasting and good and interesting and what Important to me is( read at the red phrase below),you all sure what i'm talking about, Even though I'm wearing the cheap cloth, I want people to look it as expensive, and I believe that I have that some kind of aura that bring it on... hell yeah.... I dont need to be celebrity, to live like.... hahahah... to my such beautiful inspirational model.. Agynes Deyn... well.. what I'm proud of her was even though she always wear cloth like the trash 1... I did not mean in bad way.. mmm...shes wearing like punk rock which I believe her fashion were influence to... I saw her wearing like the cheap one, but It's doesnt matter because she sell it... thats my girl... love her... can she marry me.....
okay,.. back to me... in my closet.. the most expensive thing that I have is my jacket... well not that expensive either if to compare to all my friends... it only RM85.. haha... its hilarious... because i'm not so into jacket... I wear it once... can you Imagine who people now a days are so crazy to fashion.... included me... but not so high fashion because it is obvious i cant afford it... but someday I will.....
* why my principal always changed... I dont get my self...but whats important is
" I dont want my cloth makes me expensive, I want that I'm the one who makes it look like"

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Sunday to Sundae

 dear blog,  
  
        Another day wasted by me.. haha... today.. I woke up 3 pm.. well.. its not in my record list..., sunday are the day where my family gather after busy with their school and work.... nothing to do just hang out with them, playing some ping-pongs games...mmm...get a little bored because my sister appear doesnt know how to play.... haha...  so I proceed to my next list to do today which is.... clean up my room.. its quite mess. i guess.. there is a bunch of trash everywhere..... mmm...  but hell yeah I've done it less than 20 minute...feel fresh today...so done it faster lah...hahaha...after done it, watching my parents playing the ping-pong... aiyoo... my mum scream a lot because my dad smash her with the ball, I didnt mean like abusing her, but try to playing dirty by smash the ping-pong ball when my mum send hanging ball...haha.. then, I took my little brother to shower because he still did not know how to shower by himself... thats all.. to be continue...


" I am so grate full for having them in my life, even though they can be so annoying some times'

What great about Sabah, Malaysia






      Well, Sabah was my birth place which I buried my heart into it.. Love that cant be tamed.. hehe.. so as the Sabahan I'm proud to deliver you the proud of what I can show which will make you droolin' Wow!! am I over re-act??? haha .. LOl..  Sabah and Sarawak share the name of Borneo.. but I'm not going talk about Sarawak. Perhaps Later.. I begin My word with Pictures.. mm... lot of pictures.. for the easy way.. You just click the Image to know more details okay..or click here and If you Asking about Sabah.. please click here
                               


              

               

Still Cant Decide where to head somewhere In Sabah??? Just Click Here... This Will guide you where to go... Enjoy... Thanks a bunch who support My lovely Borneo..  Im not Bragging, But Its true..

'You are so welcome'

Regretful sinner'

dear blog,

           Since a few days ago, I've been thinking so much thing that made me regret the most which make me feel so terrible. owh....For god sake, I've just want to let it go but I cant. I still can find what can I do to replace the thing that I make... shit... I'm a bloody sinner MF.... arghh... I just want to feel the relieve but I just cant stop thinking about it... I wish that there Is someone who I can talk to and help me... I'm too green to take it all... owh... why don't I think before I done it... I have done asking god for the direction to makes me feel better... but for sure I still didn't figure it... I guess this is some kind of punishment for me to feel the pain of a regretful sinner... I dont think so.. perhaps make me feel more much depress... P lease.. Maybe alcohol make it better... yupss... it quite be the most helper that I have right now... somehow, I never losing my faith to my believer god who always guide me to better place... As long I'm alive, I'll pray to you.. HE give me the breath to still alive... as  I'm thinking about HIM... I'm cool down... to be continue...

"Depression is a very devastating illness. It can harm an individual’s physical, mental and emotional states."

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Free Thing??

          I've been thinking lately on how to get free designer cloth, work on it?? neyh.. . As I turn to E Channel which it now showing " The beauties who made bank" then I spotted the top 1 beauties who I admire the most, no one else named "Gissele Bundchen" Owh gosh, she's so etnically-ish beauty Brazilian... how can the Brazillian  have so much beautiful supermodel in those chart.. I guess my dream vacation was Brazil then..


"I dont need to buy them, all those are gift, never bought anything since.."  Giselle said in an interview..


          My heart said.."WOW" really? when we are on the top, we will be given so much gift such as cloth, jewellery's...
I said... OH MY GODDDD?? its really can be happen? do all the celbrities get things free.. I want it so bad


          Im asking Myself again. and again?? how can I be like them??? I can't be neither a  Model, I'm too short, I'm just 168 cm.. I cant really see the way lead to it, its blur, then I'm continuing my brain storming... singing??? then start to think... Vocall?? out... what else?? i guess nothing?? Acting?? I guess not because my langue was to Sabahan as it was my mother tongue..mm...


I dont want to lose my spirit of sucessfull, I guess I'm going to figure out it later.....Adios

"How money contribute to hierarchy of living"

         Well, a person did dream to achieve their goal in life, which is a high standard of living, "the poor want to be rich, the rich want to be rich-ish" can you imagine that, well that what people have been taught today. their mind, behavior an so on. Everyone want to live in richness, no offence.. so do I, as this world has it own hierarchy of living which I define it in 3 different level, The high Class ( rich), The medium class (humble) and the low class (poor),

          As I've been taught by my parents to accept who we are, the also taught me how to get the respect from other, which is respect other people first. I'm barely doubt it couple of times, well I guess u all also, even though I'm on the middle class,  I'm grate full that, I have my family. I mean complete family.. I love them... I mean it.. I just dont know how to express that, I wish I could but now I know how i can interpreting my feeling which is by this site. ok. back to the line. As i'm concern about the low class, I'm too subscribe to their way of living which sometime made me to cry, hell yeah. Its like I want to help them but what can I do, we have to fought for our life. but I swear I will hep them when i'm rich. I hope. I am feeling the pain of what they've been trough. thanks god I never be. suddenly I'm floating by the emotions which I cant barely content. I'm asking to myself

       Did they realize they've been used? Who cares?? money come first?? I do
 How did they going to end up their life?? being murdered? HIV then died?? a slave?? whose their    relative, who cares?? I do
   What are they going to be?? In gangs?? In prostitution?? In jail?? or a successful person?? who cares? I do.

          Once I think about that, Soon I'm asking. why do the rich people want to be more rich if they did not want to share their wealthiness to poor people who always be the backbone of them in support them to be what they are now. I'm not asking, I'm just delivering, they do, even though they never ask it but deep down their heart, they want a better life, a good future for their family, for their children. don't blame them for being into crime. It is because they are lack of education, moral sense, love.. I guess desperation of living.

          Everyone have its own pride, not to bragging, I do have it, I do want an enormous change in my life, I've been taught not to be choosy instead to be friend to everyone without count what background do they have. with that I've now can receive my diploma of living because with my experience I can define the good and bad thing.

          To add in, I do feel pity to those Indonesian, Philliphines, Vietnamese, Nepalians and so on who have to sneak in to other country just to have their better living, but I try to be realistic, somewhere in Malaysian, there are still people who live in poverty that needs help, Those Malaysian I saw in Bersamamu which is TV3 channel, is that only for publicity, not to blame anyone, TV3 dont take it serious okay, dont sue me for this, as I'm concern there are more Malaysian who needs help. If only I have the super power. I would choose the Alladin pot thats give me three chances to make a wish. Firstly, I want to be rich forever, I mean It so I can help those people. Secondly, I want the harm, I mean no war. especially to my family an me. Lastly, I wish to have three more wish as I'm on my way to change the world. Done. As to highlight here, those wish would neer be because a Monster will be create which is me. As I learn from my past experience, "Money never change, but people does"...
will be continue....

Monday, September 20, 2010

Picture upload

dear blog,

             nothing important to write down today just want to upload some of my new picture, Tadaa.....


* haha, what a clean armpit...

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Brain storming

dear blog,
              I have this fricking hilarious story to tell... haha... I cant stop laughing when saw the post... I'm talking about this facebook group where there's been a group of " Kami Benci Luca Lucas Krn Mengutuk Negeri Sabah" haha.... really?? do we really?? really??... I am Sabahan... but I dont join the group as well... depend to them if they say that I am not a "anak jati sabah" because deep down my heart, I know I am. I've give my soul to my beloved sabah.  besides, I'm Malaysian too... this group just cause so much tention as its already 23,237 facebookers had join the group as until now which is at 3:57 am (9/16/2010).. as I mention that Ill not joining the group because I believe that he/her just want a attention...mmm....susah... bg number ja lah...

Probably he/her was & reason;
1) anonymous
2) hackers ( i mean using other people name and picture) no wonder kan...
3) a paid person ( someone paying or just an individual that jealous or have the intention to split this beloved malaysia)
4) enemies ( since last year rumors about fighting between religion, countries, Universities, races, its never stop..mmm... I wonder who's behind)
5) well as far as I concern, facebook yet bring bad thing for those who cant stand emotionally.. as I heard about this "burn al-Quran day" which is a horrible news to heard.. yet there is a unamed person which I forgot "there is no need press to make the report about the day,so people will not know because this people just want the attention" > x bole jadi celebrity, buat lain lah..
6) Same goes to the Indonesian vs Malaysia...mmm I didnt really into the fighting but sure I just want the salvation.. I think the people should get spa treatment to calm their mind i guess..hahah or.. yeah learn how to Yoga-ing...hahah...
7) I dont care... Its really dont bother me as I didnt take it serious.try to be open minded... take a deep breath... but everyday I saw people like like the the group... speaking of the devil... as we join the group with so much, and cant forget it for a day, who know he is thrill to know that he is very so popular now... haha...

        ok thats all blog, later k..

* Grammar sucks, no wonder I Failed this subject... aiyooo.... can You imagine people will do whatever for caught self popularity... haha... just think about it... theres is a bunch of problem unsolved.. this is not 1 of it... smile

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

My top Model..

Alessandra Ambrossio
everyone fav.. Tyra Banks
Marcus Schenkenberg

  
Micheal Bergin


Antonio Sabato Jr
 Well, I guess this is my Favorite Model who gave me such inspiration to never stop to go for what we want and I do believe myself that I can turn to be from someone who just sit at home in front of television to inside the television... I'm not just a dreamer.. haha... 

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Picture upload

Dear blog,

              See I told you so that I will upload the new members of family, except for the kittens picture that not done yet.. I thought maybe tomorrow, or next week.. eventually later because the kittens wast grown enough to show their talent in taking modelling session... heres are some of the picture, as always it will be always the blogger accompanying the pet...hahaha



I should just crop this picture... but be it...

Thursday, September 09, 2010

Too all Malaysian




Today is the finale of fasting day, so its time for Hari raya, just want to wish to all Malaysian.. SELAMAT HARI RAYA.MAAF ZAHIR & BATINespecially too all my fellow muslims friend. apart of it for me its equal too all races, country no matter where u come from... just be happy in this Raya... may this Raya being you joyful and better moment.... just enjoy it... to those who lost thier beloved one, just redha what God has plan... n pray for them so they can make it to better place.. dont forget the poor one.. its hard for me to express the feeling of pity to all those who cant celebrate this festival.... besides, those who can and manage, just be happy what you have now.... till then... adios...

*Berlalulah sudah ramadhan, sebulan berpuasa, bersama syawal kita rayakan, ziarah- menziarahi...........................................

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

A plus to family members~

Last night, just adopt a brown little fierce puppy from my dad work place. its so cute.... but hes have this stink smells... but I still love him.... for a day I put hem at kitchen because hes scare to the other dog and will run away to no where... so with this little empathic from this generous owner... i decided to put him at the kitchen whilst I still listen him barking and scratching the door....
*dont have the picture yet but i will upload it later...its a promise to my dear blog... Love u dog

Monday, September 06, 2010

Need a refreshment


Lately, since a few month ago I have this bad habit which is hard for me certain time to accept the fact that I such an ass Owl... why am I talk to myself like that... haha...the problem is I have the sleeping problem which I cannot tell myself to sleep early... probably my sleeping time begin at 5 am till the evening... after the afternoon for sure... and my family probably cant accept that I'm being this total jackasses.... God please forgive this sinner creature... oMg... yet I did it again as Im writing this post...for sure i am not sleepy because yesterday I woke up at 4 :30 pm to be exact 4:50pm... hahaha....this is funny that I am cheating my own lonely blog which the only person who read this blog os me... how funny is that... hhahahhaahahahhah for myself...LOL...

*Im a sinner and a believer

Saturday, September 04, 2010

+ in Family



N
othing to do.. just want to share that i have 3 new born kittens... all of them are F... as u all know now I have 9 cats include the little one...haha... this is which i've chose for their name
"Bonzai,Ming and Aoki"
... hahah... its Kimora Lee Simons daughter name...haha... i guess i like it... 3 of them has short tail... hhaha... what i like about the kittens are.. its in colour
" grey,black and mix"
haha cute.later ill edit this post to include their photo...just doesnt hv the time to snap it because its still young probably not because it has been born since 1 week ago on 21st of august ...haha

Wednesday, September 01, 2010

What a Marble doing in my body??


Clueless, thats all i can describe right now... all this while I thought it was not a big deal and I never really care about it because it was just as fine for me at all...... suddenly one day I feel so much pain at my neck and I realize the there is a small something that grown up at my neck and it like a marble I guess... but not a perfect sphere shape lah... I was like in shock and never have the courage at all to tel my family even my parents...firstly... but its getting hurt by day and finally I told them and they like shocked... thats why I did not want to tell them... the ask for me to go see Mr.doc...when they just start talk about it.. " I imagined and thinked of surgery that so painfull for a minute"... its really freak me out... and I was like say " hell, no"... I'm too scare to meet up...aiyooo....sometime i fell dizzy and caught on migrain.. then I made it like It never hurt infront of them because I dont want to make them feel pity on me or worry... I want to be the tough one.... please... god im askin for u the strength... im too scared that i found i which getting more worse.... i dont want it happen and ruin my day...all im asking is a miracle that cure it....