Photo maniac...comebacks

Lol...I got nuttin to do this morning which I was keeping my self busy surfing the web which appear I didn't even realize it is brightly morning..that is why I've been called as the night hunter..probably an owl..hahahah.. okay I won't talk much.. I've been busy with job lately...too much much function to handle.....chau, hasta luego

Graveyard Visit ;)

                      For sure those title was not very suit for this topic because I just cant think what else I suppose to put..okay this was about what I do today as the big thing which I didn't spend the few last years to be part of this...  okay to be  more clear...My Familia and I went to my late Grandfather graveyard.. we did that for purpose of cleaning those grave, so does the other family... everyone seems work very hard to clean those grave(am I right to use "those") because of our beloved who RIP in there...yes so do I.. I did spend a bit to clean my late Great-grandfather grave even though I barely don't know him. okay back to the topic.. it seems a mess at my grandfather grave at first we came.... and yet as predict we didn't have enough equipment especially water..but thank god, those graveyard are strategically near beside river.. so we have to do some rotation to get some water.... I did once... my sweat...that was tiring.....almost forgot..we started at 8 am.... and....it was a sunny Sunday... very hot which hardly burnt me into pieces...hahaha..joking...okay....no need to tell all things what I did... enough with this view...;)

Finally

             Met the full-stop yesterday...aahahha...okay...continuing my last post... I finally done with my charity cookies which is hardly for me to stimulate the hard thing that I've been through on...yes..I just want to congratulate myself for being so responsible even with my unpaid Overtime....most important is, I couldn't finish it without my very supportive colleague especially Saipul a.k.a Abg Long....hahaha... 

but. there is a but, I just can enjoy my happy moment in a short time because I've heard a very shock news which totally bring me down... "YES, PASTRIA WILL BE OPEN ON 1st NOVEMBER" that was the news.... apart of being happy because of the opening, I 'm more concern about us.. the pastrian~ the backbone of the opening... the victim.... hard to express the number of my sadness...will be continue...

Charity Mindblowing

      okay, whatever, its been over a month since the last update.hehehe.. too busy working..sorry my dear blog. ok cut all the unimportant thing, lets just go straight to the point, I have been working on something that I've been assign too which I have to participate a Charity whereby me and my colleague have to do like 300 packet of cookies which I have mention for charity deeds.. but the point is, all this way until today' we haven't reach even a hundred..OhmyGod...what the hell am I going to do...the launching was on this next thursday..... oh god...please send me Nanny Mcphee.... this is torturing....hahaha.... somehow, this update of mine weren't complete if I did not include the photo that show how my cookies really are..just saying it wouldn't be the same.... okay walla... oh by the way, the charity cookies will be launching at City Mall which mean its the launching of 14th Sabah Hospitality fiesta with the theme "Flavours of Borneo"

   

Inconsistent

What literally mean of inconsistent. to me its a piece of shit with a bit nightmare in it. for the record its my feeling which cause it.. lol... laughing to myself...why memories have te be remembered.? didn't I have tole and taught myself to just move on... isn't thats the only way to forget it unless I or you have memorize eraser gadget...please lend e a few minute... haha what I'm talking about.. okay that's all. smell ya

Frickin stress

              I dont know if yall know about true politic, yes... outside politic are much comparable same to the inside, by mean yall know about the politic that happen arround you, where ever you are.. to be specific i'm talking about during work...nonsense right..crap.. yes I admit that I did experience those thing where ever I go... for sure I was on the winning side...hahahah I'm not bragging...lol.. yeah... When I do good on the first hand, people got me wrong or in bad way stab me back...eh...not me ...us... what the hell.... yeah...but currently I didn't experience its directly...but I can feel the aura..hahaha just wait for someone to lit up the fire then...KAABOOOOMM!!! aahah.. not me...but them...yeah..I feel like those people try to sabotage me...I dont know what inside their frickin mind.. yeah...I just have to be patience with all those drama...are'em jealous of me? If only i have a shotgun in my hand...I would kill them one by one...if only its legal...hahaha.... ok yall...that all...

to be continue....................

12-8pm (Q & A)

I miss this Framily Gathering... can't wait to meet'em

          I don't know what I should put for the title of this post because this post totally got me blank..blank with no other option...hahaha...okay... that number was my working shift that I never imagine that i will put in that schedule... okay enough said...that shift is suck...really made me crazzzeeeeyyyy... lol... yes... lots of thought is on my mind right now..how to reach home was the main problem... yes... the last transport that head to my area was on 8pm... do I really have to go back before end my shift or should I stay at my friend place... and I acknowledge that the hotel did not prepare a transport unless your shift till midnight which probably after 11pm...suckaaaaaa....this is totally wrong....Dear god...please send me a Lamborghini so I can ride it back...or should I just stay outside and sleep at the street...whoa....NO way....yet, I'm stupid... I didn't ask my chief to change my schedule just for this month before I got a place nearby to stay... Stupid me...

A person asked me:

X:Why people keep running away?
Me: Because they want to move on for better living.
X: Doesn't they know that they are leaving the person that care for them.
Me: You know what, the person will always remember the memories,the person that care and they will come
     back        
     someday....
X: But still, it hurt people feeling, some people can accept it and some can't.
Me: In that case, you just have to accept it and pray for those person to always remember for those who are 
     care..
X: Okay, but I'm still sad.
Me: Yes, time will heal..
X: Emmmm...eeerrr..okay...seems you've experience it...
Me: YES, lots of time..


*those question really stab my heart to remember all the things that run away from me.... ;(

Hate & Respect

      Why??? even bother when you done nothing wrong unless a bit that can still touch-up... lol... Watahell~ ok... this is madness...i'm so annoying when came to meet several of people that truly didn't understand the way we do... when you just talk with your gigantic mouth...lol...sometimes I found it hilarious when thinking the way they (the person) act wisely when the boss with us(puiii...tampar kepala sikit)...i'm Lol-ing non stop...hahahaahahhahahahaha...I did realize that he is high level than me so what I can do now is express this to y'all.. every body seems annoyed the way he talk and fact the person are still new to this hotel...not to bragging that i'm much more longer here but if it is the way that he introduce itself to us...(pi mampuslah) gotohell~..jus sit and giving direction aren't make you better but increase the hater~ hahahaha...peace... I ain't going to write down the name (lu pikirlah sendiri)..

           Okay..NEXT.. people that I'd respect the most was our owner.. Horizon hotel owner Mr.Gary itself... even though he is at the position where we can't barely approach him (rationally) he did all the work include sweeping the floor... he teach us about how to make it more ease and systematically(yaka??)..haahahah...yet he is known well as workaholic as he is just like us a few back years.... he start from bottom as contractor where he used to sleep at the floor as what contractor do till nowadays.. yes...we can see the way he do a work...even his wife also do some general thing like loading a heavy things... help to clean the room... word that I simply can describe for them "always be humble where ever you are"....yes RESPECT boss~ ;)

*sometimes got annoyed..hahahaha,,,,don't take it serious ;)

Just like Yesterday

    It feels just like yesterday since the last time im into relationship. seriously I didn't realize that it has been ages since the last one...ehemmm.... probably..mm...nayh..no need to tell y'all.. I dont know maybe it is meant to be like this that I have to stand alone just for survival before thinking about the next step.. mmm..I'm okay with it... I already used to it...I don't need companion other then my family and friends... I used to be free from commitment especially about L.. what the L???? okay... I wrote down about this because I have no Idea what to write... just to fill the emptiness... okay let me tell y'all why I'm still single:
okay here it goes:-


a) I don't like commitment
b) I don't like controlling people or to be control.
c) I am so busy with myself (no time to think about other person)
d) I don't like messaging or calling ( I don't like to get contact when it is not an Important thing)
e) I can't handle people
f) I don't like drama
g) I don't want anyone in between me and my carrier for now( focus were crucial)
h) I don't have enough money to support you (i'm not born with silver spoon in my mouth)
I) You could find someone better than me.
J) I'm available when I'm totally ready
k) I just want to be free from now till then.
l) I'm no one look for
m) I'm choosy
n)  I just not into you

okay thats all <3


*when I asked for your number and I didn't call back means I didn't Interested (just for collections)..
hahahha...Kidding

Why drunk?

 oppps..unthikable properly I said I got while drink with my colleague mmmm probably  call them chef because they are more higher level than me.. OMg... I dont know if i write this thing rightly, ahhahaha.... drunk while writing is not a problemo? isn't it.... aiyooooo, what to, beside i'm so tired.. just got back home before my shift ended this 3 p.m evening... then went to karaoke-ing with colleagues too before hte drink and drunk session begin...walllaaaa~this is the result I got ting-tong half tipsy then got sober while when to Tanjung Aru for a couple minute then straight away to home..okay finish~

SALARY?????when

         
        Yes, every job do have tag price, those who doesn't work was the one who never really know what the price was truly about...you know? MONEY? yes...each work that we do have been set the price, price that keep us happy, and feel appreciate...and silent...do we? without Money there is no such thing as laughter...what all matters is pain,suffer... that is why people live to gain money mmmm...probably both of it rationally inter-related... CRAPPPPPPPPP> dont know what to write,,, the reason I'm talking about money blah..blah is because I haven't yet recieve my salary ....urrggghhhh... its is killing me waiting for the day... my expected day was last monday but why?why? it never was.... I'm so poor.. I can't go anywhere apart of to work..LAME.... whilst I walked Infront of Kfc,I just smelled the aroma of it and stared at people while they eating the crunchiest spicy chicken...omg... in hoping they give me a bite...ahahahahi'm fricking out of date...cant wait to be bury 6 ft under....What the hell i'm writing..urggghhh..this is the problem when I'm writing in emotional still under me... the lang,the grammar totally out~ FAIL

Induction Training

               Well, as I am newbies in hotel industry, I probably have to attend the training induction that held by the hotelier itself by mean the expertise...but...there is but.There is this problemo"small matterlah" I am here for my Job which is Kitchen department. I dont know if it is so related to the service but what I heard from a past couple days, there is none of kitchen matter been discuss.. either it is not so very important or their just want to talk about their side... not to blame anyone but the other kitchen colleague also got bored...What to do.. I address me to we because it consist me with the colleague...hehehe when there nothing to adapt because...I dont know..I dont want to say anything bad or being arrogant but the training was suppose to cover F&B which mean consist of Service and kitchen...but.. I dont know if this is only for the beginning...maybe they are planning something but got out of time because we are so busy transferring item from a gigantic container to hotel parking lot......imagine 2 container in approximately 6 hours.. heheh....we manage to do it by 4 pm...yeay...
Then I suggest to our housekeeping supervisor Miss Nelida to take us back to Housekeeping or briefly short form as "HSK" lol...do I have to? I got annoyed by doing nothing in the meeting room perhaps waste my time.. you know why beacuse....waiting the time to go back while didn't do anything is like collecting my trillion heart pieces tha spread on the floor...haahhaha...CRAP.....okay...thats alll...
to be continue......

Kaamatan de Familia Festival~

              Lol...when talking about Kaamatan, sure for those who read my previous Kaamatan post will know what truly Kaamatan mean for me... hahahah...okay. At first, for those who didnt know about it, Kaamatan was the place where I humiliate myself by getting drunk....I drank a lot of alcohol in previous Festival and I learn from there to control myself for not getting humiliate again.and I did It... My cousin tried to bribe my with a tons of beer but sure there someone who always remind me to get sober...sober...sober... thanks to youlah..hehehe..but I forgot took picture, mmm...later... okay this year I tried to convince myself to sing in front everyone...and....I did it..mmm about three times...First, i sang a duo song with my cousin which sang by Awie and Ziana Zain "senja nan merah" I dont know if my familia was astonish with my voice but I sure they do.. because they never heard me singing...hehehe...not to braglah...LOL..then I sang a single song which I always sing this song when Karoke-ing with friend... "Mengenangmu by Kerispatih" and my last song was "Biarlah Bulan Bicara by Breory Marantika"...hehehe It was the closer song for the night...haahhahaha..

*later update...to be continue...

How about M-Pop??

     W ell, apparently I just found out something enormous, something that people laugh about, something that people criticize on the first hand, no offence... but I am not one of it... why should I?
ok, lets move to the main topic, I just heard about this new Malaysian Pop or briefly called as M-pop which originally copied from Korean industries which apparently it is not their originate ideas though (K-POP)... hehehe but they did the enormous thing by make it their own ideas..bravo... they project it to the next level.. Level where the world look up at them.. WOW... isnt that a gigantic impact... everyone want to be part of them, everyone turn up to be poseur, everyone paste their style.. do we? oh... I forgot to mention about the Malaysian Group Pop that ever exist..I dont know if you guys already know them...heheheh Laugh at myself because became so Lame~ Presenting Gula Gula group , this is Gula Gula official facebook page.. hehehe... sorry if I was wrong in the first place by writing about this without permission...this is a female group..

          Okay Done with female group, so I now head to the male group which is I did notice it when the founder itself told me, the Male group before this called as 24:7 but they decided to change it to "Max 247". I dont know why but what the hell..its their own buss...I dont know the link of that group but you can check it trough the founder Aesar Mustafa itself.... okay done with the unbriefly introucing with me..

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Okayy..now about this M-POP group.. I dont have any intention to sabotage or make any war declaration because I love improvement... I hate to judge, I hate those people who criticize them...okay let me tell you the typical behavior of Malaysians they hate who "aren't good enough to their eyes(became so commentalkative), who gives the bad first impression, who copy and paste, people who want to succeed" you should also know that they will admire "people that they boo-ishing in the first place become successful within world eyes, or part of their family," eeee.....why so lame....oh please...Stop me If I am wrong......please...Please people be open minded... I'm not begging you to love it but I'm begging you people to change the typical behavior..What to do? Lets say that they in the future manage go trough international Music... who will be proud? didn't we?
hahaha..just Sayingg...hehehehe..

*oh btw I love to see the one who standing number 3 from left of Gula gula group.. she gorgeous... Damn... Lab u..

I got a Love Letter

 I cant sleep...what to do? I still dont have any Ideas what to write about....mmm... sometimes I think should I post about my Love story??mmm...probably not.....

owh..yeah..today I went to the Hotel where I attend the Walk-in interview which I'd mention that I got it... so today I go for no reason just to take the appointment letter which  just like a confirmation letter which I have to sign.. sort of things... I dont know is it also known as contract???? mmm...no..isn't it because a contract would probably told a compulsory period of time which we have to work there.. so I'll start this 20th...mmm... I felt so uninspired when talking about work, it is so not me working hard... but what can I say,, this is the beginning of my life survival...crap.. then I found out that the General Manager(GM) of that hotel are my Mum previous GM. so What to do? I dont know what to write down at this 4:27 a.m.... my eyes can't barely open but my brain still operating...LOL..Then I know.. Life's was never really simple.. What comes out from my mouth never be as what I do today, I did say that I wouldn't ever step into Hotel-ing operation... but yet.. here I am standing waiting for the day....mmm What To Do?

I'm Confuse:

Malay is Hard because some Word are not correctly said, or am I the fail one???

Example:

How to say 'me" correctly

This       or        This

Melati<------->Meja

*some people correctly or incorrectly say 'Me' as 'Mae" for example Indian people said "Maelayu", "Maelati" but what to do with "maeja"

how to say 'ke' correctly

This       or         This

Kelabu <------> Keju

and so on.....What to do? 

Backtime

well, it seems I am lost between unseen ideas.. I dont know what to write about so I thought that answering formspring question would probably help me a bit....okay.. so I guess it would be another story that cross my mind today..

Giant by Bronson

He used to be a small kid
Just like the skins of a peanut  
Whom never get the attention
Whom always bargaining stuff just to live
Whom being told to stay humble


He used to be the Hyde of Mr. Jekyll 
Who always be friend of dark side
Whom marked as the guilt person
The victim of betrayal,

Sometimes he wonder, 
What to do? what to do? 
Am I going to be forever like this..


The boy who can think mature,
That think that hope never betray,
Hope that realize him where to stand,
The sweat that always by his side


He is a brave, a clever  and very out spoken
Who no one want to hear,
Who think that he is stupid,
Who never think that he will be someone


Sometimes he ask, he pray
he seek for the guidance he never realize
What to do? what to?


Yet, the patience who always be the guidance
Who lead him to stand for the sorrow,
Because the patience know,
It would be something that might help,
Something that teach him to be Giant.

Would you rather get up early or sleep late?

I'm an owl

Ask me anything...I'll buy some time~

Would you rather be the best player on a losing team or the worst player on a winning team?

I'd rather be the best player on a losing team....

Ask me anything...I'll buy some time to answer it

Would you rather date a lot of different people, or be in a committed relationship?

I'm not into Commitment thing... So I probably date a lot of different people because I would be known well as their friend will be mine too...didnt I already mention that I'm an extrovert person~

Ask me anything...I'll buy some time to answer it

If you had your own talk show, who would your first three guests be?

Oprah Winfrey, Queen Elizabeth and and Angelina Jolie... then I would be famous~

Ask me anything...I'll buy some time to answer it

Am I okay?

Busted....What Am I thinking???The thought of dirty cannot be thrown away.ahahah.... for sure negative thinking comes first...hhahaah

Future MOLOTOV local Singer

             I introduce my current respect and Likeable singer-ish... Her name is Salmah bt A.Asis... haha...perhaps I didnt have to write down further details because she is everyone talking about, everyone favorite right now.... she is on Mentor now still competing....she well-known for her high note, her confidence during performance, Erra Fazira mentor. Everyone like expecting what she will do next and everyone like want to skip all other contestants b mean everyone said she deserve to win right now... YES, she DESERVE.. not to discriminate anyone but the truth has comes out....hahaha...here she is, isn't she is beautiful, Go Salma, Makes Malaysia Proud.... hahaah... Goosebumps all over my body after she strikes the high notes... hehehe... I heart you Salma~

Do I have what it takes??

            Yesterday as mention from previous post, I went on walk-in interview that held at Horizon Hotel which inside the Kota Kinabalu itself, I am so nervous while attending the interview but as I saw people start to line up for interview, my heart beat slowly decreasing... I don't know how to pictured the nervousnous.. My hand sweat a lot...While sitting my leg can't stop shaking plus the air-con was freezing like hell..mmm not hell like being at north pole....its like below 0-degree inside there, but I wonder why am I still sweating.... haha...cut the crap... so as I called inside to meet up with the interviewer, I manage to convince him that I am capable of handling job efficiently...so.. I got It... I will be start my duty on 20/5... I dont know if it confirmed already because I didn't receive any confirmation letter that told  me so... what to do? I just can sit and wait.... the salary was not as I expected... it is away from what I asking for...what to do???

Filling the Resume

            For now, I'm busy-ish filling my job application form. As I'm filling it, time clock too fast and I didn't even realize that I took much time to fill it. this is a last minute work...How can this happen. My walk-in interview are tomorrow.. I didn't study anything yet... My confidence wasn't at the level that I expected... the nerve attack me... my heart pump out very fast, it is because I never experience to attend any interview my myself which mean single person.... oh My Lord, give me the strength.. Didn't I suppose to study instead of blogging or Facebooking. I waste so much time...but, What to study? 
This Is my resume..ahaha

Never Say Goodbye

           Okay even though its been long time I watch the drama but still, i'm still stick with the song, the movies didn't bother me as to courage me to saw it again, but the song does... my ear stick with it, apparently, now currently subscribed..hehehe .... this song was made for My Girl Ost song(Korean Drama)... So i'm sorry to tell you that I'm not that attracted to the drama apart more than the song...hehehe...the song do remind  everything surround me...the experience I've been trough and one thing which highlighted the overall thing was never say goodbye if you didn't want to.... but people does this any times to me... so whatever.... WHAT TO DO?? i'm lame??? so what???if thats what on your thought~

I compile my post with the song lyric~

formspring.me

Ask me anything...I'll buy some time to answer it http://formspring.me/benbronson

Yoga-ing~

        yes, I'm desperately want to gain some height... I look up on web about the technique, the tips, ways to gain some height but I came to endless search.... don't know what to do... so I have my question post to yahoo group, then came an answer that yoga probably could work... so I tried it .... yes it works.. I gain a cm within a week... I am so happy....that was a slightly tremendous mood changes I have today...heheheh... I just wish I can gain weight until 6 ft... yes... I know I can...heheheh....but theres only certain posture that sure help you... I won't feed you, find by yourself...okay...heheh....lets yoga-ing.... do not feel stress...just be patience... no things are meant to be free or easy.....what to do???

Good Bye-RIP

      When It comes to title above for sure hook to someone who passed away.. Yes..it is... I'm talking about someone who I barely know even though we are not relatively connected but I do fell the lose.... okay... Let me briefly explain the details... it was my cousins maid son who died recently....mmm..probably last night because of breathing problem...I do not know the details yet but I will confirm it later... okay I fell the a bit emptiness after tragically heard the news... yes...I used to play with him...forgot to mention...he is only 6 years old and he is a boy... I used to scream at him...how I am so regret what I've done... he was just a kid... plus he is a special kid..by mean he is a Albino,for me he is just a normal kid.. he used to play with my brothers and the memories patched all over my house, at the tree where they used to play....mmm..I dont know how to describe my feeling... I just feel LOST... what to do??? I'll mourn for you.... thank you for being part of my life.... good bye my friend... Rest in peace....

Rip Batos,

The Homemade Doughnut

                 I wonder how I never ever think of put a recipe in my blog as I study for it... okay.. I just finished watch "Julie & Julia" movie through HBO channel...it has increase the curiosity in me which mean the way that a very long ago cook writer helped a married woman to learn cooking just by it text... the woman feel the passion of Julia which by the way the writer' name and the woman name was Julie...Forgot to mention it earlier...okay...Julie feel the emotion of Julia through her writing.. I don't know how... Just by reading it, she(Julie) start cooking without any experience helped by the book and her husband. she tries every single of Julia recipe and even blog every recipe she made which she specially tribute to her biggest inspiring cook, Julia itself. Somehow, Julia didn't embrace the appreciation as the way Julie's wanted to apart of she(Julia) felt insulted and hate as the matter effect she thought someone(Julie) try to stole her idea even though she never barely spoke to Julie face to face...

                Okay... enough of it... today I just want to share all of you the secret of making the ever simplest Doughnut... you can make on your own... no need an experience...what you need is a hand and energy...because let me say this...kneading the dough was not an easy job....it is tough...my hand sometime cramp..you just need a big mixer by mean a truly factory mixer but you don't need that..we have our hand right.. okay here it is...The recipe.. Lets cook

DOUGHNUT

Item 1

500 g flour

A packet of yeast (a spoon and a half)

2 cups of Icing sugar

Item 2

An nos of egg

2 tablespoon of butter/margarine

1 tablespoon of oil

Item 3

250 ml of water

Method:

Mixing The Dough

a) Sieve all item 1 and mix well.

b) Add Item 2 and mix well (in this step you have to knead until it has a shape of "will be" dough with a flour mixture look like bread crumb.

c) Lastly, pour the item 3, bit by bit.. do not pour all of if because you will not know the consistency of the dough.So you might to be careful. okay, you just have to knead until it form to dough shape.  okay just knead it.

d) After done with the kneading process, you have to proof it about 10-15 minutes.

e) Then after proofing it, just punch the dough to push out the air out.. 

f) You are now one step closer to cook it. What you need now is a rolling pin and a doughnut shape maker.. then you are done.hehheeh

Cooking the dough(Fried)

Before you cook it, you have to proof it about 5 minutes again to let the air go into the dough which develop the dough and make your doughnut even bigger..heheheh...hahahaha... then you are done with it.... Lets cook... Oh, My Doughnut seems already Golden Brown coloured.enjoy you own homemade Doughnut... just for saving you budget..enjoy with your Icing sugar...wasn't it delicious..yummy

Okay...See Ya

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       This article are confirmed and I did saw on Buletin utama about this rumors.. somehow we just need to be aware and prepare about it... the SMS was just sent by anonymous person and being spread to others.. so dont be worry...you can go outside tomorrow..hehehe..just be alert about further announcement..Do you? click here for further information.

Picture Upload again?

              T he season of Picture Upload here again....well..i never miss to upload a pictures of mine within a month... its my habit.... who cares..hahaha lol...so I ended up taking a few picture with a camera instead of hand-phone as I usually did. but I manage took only a few shots because of insufficient battery...where the hell am I going to find a new battery.... its can't be charge type... I'm afraid it'll leak if i'm refuses to...hahaha.. safety first...okay...here it is...with a simple edit....Just touch up on brightness/contrast, vibrance and exposure using photoshop... its easy.... It took me about 5 minute to complete all of it... I rather to go without touching my natural face including skin proportion instead of editing it too much...just embrace the way I am... okay..see I'm wearing a snow-cap and a very loose v-neck shirt which I fall in love with. Don't you now? ok let see.."the most least edited was on the middle one...that was my true skin colours"...heheh

          

 

        

Tsunami strikes Japan

       J ust found out that Tsunami on 8.9 scale hits Japan(7.3 metres high) through Google... omg, just be thankful that it was not as bad as the Tsunami strikes on 2004 its all because of their highly effort to technology that alarm people earlier...ohh...yeah... As far as I know, 32 people killed and maybe increase by time... I hope not.... I just can pray for their safety..those who not make it. I'll mourn for you within my heart.. this picture below tell which country will expected to receive the waves over the next few hours.. Thank God Malaysia is not in range...but just beware..

11.21 PM (12 March 2011) --->Additional Information
Yes..I would rather sit infront Tv or Laptop to hear the newest information about this gigantic monster... Does someone release their Kraken?? ok ...no Joke...be serious.... I gather all my information, as I know over 1300 people found to be dead.... this is thrill....yes it is.... somehow all Malaysian are safe... apparently, for me, It doesn't matter if your are a Malaysian, its still about human life..mmm....will hear from me soon~ do you?

Ridiculous ft Nonsense

          Well, i'm annoyed when some people think that they are the only things that have feeling, the only thing that alive, the thing that call humanity.. somehow I recall are you even human? or just a thing... okay..lets get start.. Yes.. I do admit sometimes I do wrong, frequently perhaps, not to blame, yes but I do understand that it was my own fault.. but when comes to a scene where people start teasing you with a bundle of metaphor words... for me I cannot stand it..yet not to scold them backs but just wait for the comebacks...because for me you are just nothing, nothing to lose for doing the backstabber thing...but im not the kind of person..hahaha... i'm far away to the main topic...I would say I'm talking about the ridiculous touching status where crack my head on... yerk.... you..hello..i'm not snobbish..okay..just mind your bussiness...Lol~ am I the one the talking? hahaha.... Perasan. ;-) okay let me conclude.... I just don't like anyone to post any touching status which convincing me that they just a fool~ Yes I do know that you were on your hard time, but come on... do you need to tell the world that you are in miserable pain...wow..its okay when you post "i'm bored" or something like that..... but a frequent post less then  10 minute make me crazy....you are so annoying... add on list      "I hate a girl that:"  ..okay am I wrong? Do you...

The Dream

        Fuhh... ok dream, yes...everyday we had a dream..a dream where we fantasize about something that unreal... either it is a bad or a good one..... somehow I still wondering why it is hard to runaway when we get chase by some figure in our dream???I'm still questioning...is there any technology that can snap our dream and save it... I want one...It will be the most in demand.... everyone must have it...hahaha...

        Okay proceed to main topic, last night I have a dream, a very rare dream, I'm questioning why he is in my dream...okay let me deliberate the dream...it started when someone anonymous first came to my house then apparently turn to someone that I know, someone that I never know well, someone whose on my Facebook list, someone whom I never speak to, somehow in my dream, we seems very close, we had joy together, chatting, like a best friend does, one part where we just hang out and laugh. that was the only thing that I remember...he seems known me for a very long time and I admit that we go to the same University..but how come he appear in my dream....ewww....no need to mention who he was...enough for the sex gender..it just ruin my dream of the day....somehow, I hope we can meet up and be a bestfriend someday just like the dream... as I believe in Deja Vu thing....who knows if its going to be happen.. see ya my future bestfriend...ahahhaha...silly...mi casa es tu casa

Movie diet

        What is Movie diet?? hahah...I just made it..its symbolic to my movie time... it same as having your meal in a certain proportion perhaps nothing to eat apart drinking...hahaha ok... Let me tell you,I've just finished watching "The Great Raid" which is very touch and inspired me within or out my self..yeah...really....the only actor I recognize was James Franco...but I don't think that he was the main role...(a minute after goggle it) its Benjamin Bratt whose took the main role spot...hahaah..yeah I do saw him in a couple movies still didn't know his name before the goggleing thing...hahaha.. The attention paid off though as I can surf inside and feel the existence and their spirit of war which took place at Manila most of the place that scene on was portraying at "Cabanatuan prison Camp" its the refugee which they have been prison for 3 years, its real.no..i mean its based on true story...can you Imagine?? "okay then, how can now a days people,you or me those who serving the National Service (PLKN) which particularly for those Malaysian, its only 3 month...maybe less...still you cant stand for it and being fussy-ing around, stop it you MF!!...how about them..haha do you? are you??" What I mean by touch my heart was the scene where they show the spirit of teamwork even though they are from a really different skin., the true friendship who keep their friend safe till the end of their life... its really touch and bring out the soft side of me...well indeed...okay then...I gave the movie 7/10... Its not perfect because some of the part was boring though you have to experience it by yourself to enjoy it.... somehow I'll checking on for some kind of War film from Malaysia...I already bored with Bukit Kepong or the made up story..I want the on based true story... I want...yes...

The Job Seeker

   Help.. its all I'm asking..I'm totally frickin' bored with my life... I didn't even know what to do right now...  I want to succeed.. succeed in any condition...mmm by condition... no matter what it is..... I want a job... A job that can make me rich... richer than you..hahaha....ok.... this week, my mission was to go out and seek a job.. I want to do it so bad... I want my own money...I want my own life then space where no one can interfere me as I am now... I want a job.. oh God, as Lady Gaga said him with the capital of H' who is he? you are dumb!! if you didnt know that if yes, you should just buy a gun and shoot your head!!!... oh...should I ask from Him' for sure just asking wouldn't be enough without the effort... tommorow will be the first adventure...wish me Luck.... big salary is my priority~

Lose Weight Gain

         Hahaa...it is weird right?? yes...it is... people now a days are way too stress about getting the specific type of body which they want to be the genetically type of skinny which they aren't...those who sometimes discriminate some of the fatter one apart the skinny which are scientifically named as anorexia even though the weren't that bad but they should aware that the sickness giving bad message to the greenest child who will attempt to be like them...those people who skip or having the unappropriated diet which can easily contaminate themselves..people will says...yeah...wathahell...its my body... mind your own business.... see hows the effect goes... is it the way you want to be health???, yes you are skinny , somehow deep inside your body who knows.. perhaps the most important was you brain had been set-up to do all those thing.....ok thats enough...no more talking...

         Although people are getting ahead to getting to zero size(for woman)... I'm not, because I ain't woman.. hahahaha..joking.... I'm the opposite of the Biggest Loser...which is the Biggest Gainer.... ahhaha... I'm genetically born to be skinny type of person...I didn't remember if I ever be a fat one.... yeah.... mmm... I just remember that I once be the type of chubby one when I was a little kid....Is it in fat category..it is... I say no because It is probably usual for a kid to that type of body.... okay... my mission was to gain my weight to 60kg which I am now 51kg... to thin right.... yes I know.. everyone who barely knows me said I was to skinny....es, sometimes I do feel the embarrassment and the awkwardness when people talking behind me about my body type.. hahaha.. whathehell...somehow...I didnt manage to gain my wieght even a Kg...ahahah so... maybe I should just embrace the fact that I am skinny....yes... now I said..  "I am healthy to be Skinny, so whathehell do you care, at least I'm not anorexia,"

I'll keep waiting~

      Yes, my parents,teacher, et familia once teach me not to speak to strangers, yes I have learn so much thing from they..that one can't be deny...they taught me to be careful and if I can be more extra... always remember to put the extra while doing something... somehow I was a careless person...okay stop taking about the lesson...

              Shall we proceed to the main topic....I was watching "Letters to Juliet" which I fell in love with...hahah... I feel like an idiot to express my feeling here..people will notice that I have a bit inside of me that are romantics...awwww....eventually j'adore la Mademoiselle Amanda Seyfried...owh..love her... okay back to the topic...at once I saw the scene when the granny read those letter that Sophie used to reply her letter that says "what" and "if" was a different words but if both combine together will bring a big change, I was astonish which by mean that was the word...the word I've been looking for...It was very suit for those who have had lost their long time moments...I hope the story was true...Is it? nayh...just forget it....probably you wouldn't find this time...unless you have invented a time machines....I wish I can explore the world when I was in my 20ies, and already made a check-place where I want to go...its Verona City... I want to check the fact that people are still doing the writing letter activities....mmm... i shouldn't called it activities.. probably....mmm...ceremony... yeah...and ?Now I just know that there is "fact analyst" job..hahah lame.... if this case that there is a place where all the Juliet can express their feeling and waiting for the answer to give their hope because as I know, hope are the words who make people to keep waiting and live patiently...  okay what about for the Romeo...shouldn't they also deserve a place....I hope there is... I will discover it later....

               For sure I do hope that I will soon find my soul-mate.. one day... I hope... I want to share the joy, happiness and the love... It should be a love first sight because I never yet to discover how its feel...Is it diff compare to the other feeling.... somehow where I am going to find one.... Destiny!! yes... the key was Destiny... I believe in it... I believe that destiny will bring us together even after 50 years.... but, how I can possibly for sure that I am having my love first sight that time... ain't no psychic power...later I will google it.. hehehe.... where to begin????Ciao

I'm a Kadazan

      Well, according to the title above, I'm going to let my significant native out so people can truly understand the native, what most important is I'm one of it....Talking about it, too many people I mean outsider thinking, most of them speculate that this Kadazan was a Religion....If you are A Malaysian... this is for you... Are you really that dumb??? if not...then let me introduce,perhaps you should just search or click Kadazan which is one of a Race/ethnic that exist in Malaysia perhaps to most of Sabahan..the click probably bring you to it wikipedia...hehe..Well, what was the purpose of having the wikipedia if we are going to explain by ourself, perhaps we'll get bored with it..reality is, the Kadazandusun are use broadly in defining the both Kadazan and Dusun as they have almost the same language which the pronunciation was the only thing that differentiate the both of it...I dont know about anything else...
        Okay too much talking about the native..now I'm going to present myself indoing this life as a Kadazan-ian should I put the -ian?? hahaha...just for fun...okay...overall I'm proud to be born as Kadazan as my ethnicity, perhaps I will accept any of those etnicity as I born with It... I will try to embrace it... I'm not that kind of person who reject the walk of life that chosen for us...I'm honor to born as one of them but I didnt have full standard qualification to re-present this ethnicity to people eyes... as a matter fact,  maybe my qualification of degree was a translater....hahaha..am I kidding...okay...be serious...
            I say "I didn't spoke fluently in my native language which is Kadazan but what really matters was I do understand It and I can project to outsiders"
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The short conversation~
            My Dad Says "How can you even protect or save our native language if you did not start talking with your tongue, then, the next generation will not cover with the language anymore its ahead to extinction, Confirm!!"

             I stumble when talking back..With a little voice I say "at least I understand it".


            "There is no guarantee in just to understand it, you have to speak it loud so you wouldn't forget it" my Dad says back and it ended the conversation.

      The trouble-ish conversation starts when I talk to my sibling with Bahasa mix  English... hahha...the funny part is my Dad call my lil sis and bro as "Pilak/Philipin-ian" if they were talking using bahasa... I use to be called that name but I just ignore it..so the Morale values was to keep our family in together was to be faith..

   For that I'll Introduce myself in my native Language
"Ngaan oku nopo nga ie Ben Bronson Blasius, au oku apandai do minuat Kadazan" "fail oku tii...ahahah"
"ei toihan oku nopo nga ei basic dau id Kadazan, au oku apandai do mimboos id atarang tapi karatii oku num id tuhun nopo mimboos sabap nopo nga aiso id onu-nunu id suang tutak ku num ontok mimboos om tuhun.. miaga nopo Id tanak do baru balajal do minuat om mimboos" Done

     Ok..seriously,it is bad...hahaha...atleast I make an effort to show that I am a Kadazan...I'm not going to explain it.just ask your Kadazandusun friends...hahaha..I do fell embarrass with that petition I wrote because it was not my best...I have to improve a lot...perhaps not only Kadazan but English too..grammar sucks yeah..atleast i know it and I have it...
Do you???