Heading to 2011

Well, within 24-hours the history will change... we will be leaving the year of 2010... this is Madness... omg... How I can go through the time as I'm getting older... mmm...I'm so frustrated as the time goes so fast.... I never to realize that time is so precious as we get older... yes.... I'm too scare to get older and older....mmmm... n I'll be count as 22 then...its not suit for my figure yet as I'm look too young for this ages.... can I rewind it.... I want to alter the slack that I did... ok.. btw this is my new new super short hair cut... hehhee

Its Christmas Eve

Yeay... whowww....argghh.. I woke up early this morning and stared at the wall for a few minutes... ahahha... Its my habit.. then immediate went to laptop and writing this down...mmm...probably I just have my 1 hour sleep only. hahhaa..its worth though...okok... its Christmas Eve.... hehehe...I almost wrote down New Year eve....hahaha...ok...this is so hilarious when I mis-dated the Christmas day which I taught it was on 26th.... hahaha...and im not worrying anything perhaps I should make some preparation what to cook and bake... hahaha... and soon I found that I was wrong..Im freaking freeze...and my adrenaline rush up to the top of my head...ahahah...only Santa's know how crowded I am...so I start to calm down and told myself not too worried... I have my sibling to help me out... yeay... problem solved... so today as the Christmas Eve started... and the smell of Christmas is less within 17 hours I have my own mission... which to get haircut done... my hair seems too long for me as it already reach my armpit...ahahha..ok so I better move my ass on.... smell ya...

A Newbies

Secret Garden

First Wives Club

hurmmm....I dont know how to explain... some sort I've been follow up Korean drama lately... shockly I'm so up to date about this new addiction...wahha...well i'm not kinda to be called Korean Fanatic... I'm not there yet... somehow I can be lable in Fan Group... surprisingly Ive been follow up this Korean drama since I was 10... ummm...urggh... I cant remember... first Movie... "All About Eve"... ok... but this one suprisingly I never saw the "Winter Sonata" drama... hahhaha... but... I know the ending because at that time(remembering the past) everyone keep talking and dicuss about it... and Hell yeah... It doesnt even caught my attention and desire to watch it...not to be criticize or what but.. I dont like too slow or too romantic scene.... hahah... ok then...  so this is what I've been follow up now..

Daring Woman

Dr.Champ

A sIckness Morning

mm....yeah...hell yeah...just woke up.. omg.. my room are smell stinky..ouchh.. it cause by the cigar smell.. mm.. ok as usual the reason i woke up late is because i sleep late..hehe indeed..o same goes to yesterday.. without brushing my teeth... i head to dinner table and pour up a cup of coffee..when i say its a cup.. yeap.. the cup were big which can fill up several regular cup of coffee. ok cut it off.. after that i immediate head to watch tv.. mm..thinking what channel it would be.. unfortunately the remote controll doesnt work.. so guess what.. i open up the controller.. suprisingly.. it contains something sticky.. i dont know what it is.. seems like someone just spilled nescafe onto it.. and i was like.. what the puck... who the hell done it.. so i ask my sister..that was the time the case revealed and solved..haha..its my lil brotha done it. he spill up a glass of coke onto it.. with an anger face i stare at him..he was like crying within heart.. i jacked the chicken hell out him with stare of death.. haha.. so mind my own bussiness.. it wasting my time.. so i proceed to clean up the controller but..yet as i dont need to fix it.. it still didnt work. mm..its recharging my temper. im so devastated.. omg do i need to push the button on decoder.. so i decided to play games on laptop.. mm. it went until night.. i never to realize that the clock ticking to fast..pheww... no regret though

Lose a voice

          
  hahaha...the title already told what i'm going to write huh....mmmm... ok.... well I guess i'm not using my voice properly during singing..plus shouting and screaming....mmm.. ok my point here are i'm trying to practice for future advance.. hahah... i've been thinking to attend any reality audition...no need to explain it...ok... If im not excepted well I guess it is not my time to have the opportunity... like people said... Good thing came last... ahhaha... but I will try my best and will practicing over and over, day by day... Is it Annoying??? YES. It should... but my sibling keep their mouth shut and made them shut...ahahha.... even my parents never said anything...ahahhaa...maybe they show some support kot... mmmm....

              The problem is, I still didn't know what my key voice are...is it A,B,C...mmm....confuse..how to know rrrrgggghhh......learn to sing are quite difficult..... yes... humming??? ma,me,mi,mo,mu...hahahahan.. DO,RE,MI,FA,SO,LA,TI,DO, and melodically sing it backwards then.... I have this once...one experience singing in front of the crowd....+ my Girlfriend.......mmm...ok...NO it is twice..yes...I remember....1)during my high school and Jom Heboh... wahahaha..... what a shame... since then I never thinking of it doing it again...High School = Disaster... got in semi-final I guess... already forgot about it... wahahah... then during Penang Jom Heboh....wahhaha.... I was attending/furthuring my study at UiTM... thats y got there...as I remember a bunch of people looking at me and yes... a got a big applause...whahah... and I was like frickin' nervous..as I remember...'Teman Tapi Mesra' song if i'm not mistaken... by Mulan mmm... I dont know what the group is.... Its been a while... my brain cant process the scene...shait....I even cant remember how I get there....yeay.... Owh...
 yeah...now i remember... I've done it three times...Raub,Pahang which I attend my National service... hahahah... and I got 4th place...what a shame...heehhehe.....mmm.....ok wait...i'm processing my brain....mmm...come on...my brainstorming start...mmm...view my childhood....mmm...neyhh...never....mmmm...ok is Choir are included as singing....mmmm...YES but...ther is a but..It is a Group singing... yes...I admit My school always got the first plast...not to brag...but its true..as i remember we lose at.... hahaha my brain jammed... What Is peringkat Bahagian in English???mmm...ok...who cares...yeah...then I remember.... we've this group singing for English Week... which formly among my classmate...and..and we've successfully got the 1st place...hehehe....since that we've been invited to outside performance....haha....it happen once... it was 'Cant Take My Eyes Off You' song who let us trough the final.... and mmm... i forgot...i'll edit it later the song who let us won the choir champion..haahha...yippie....WOw....I didnt realize that i've wrote this long....fuhhhhh..... ok then later....

oh-ho...Its her birthday...

    DAYAH'S BIRTHDAY WAS 11/12.. 

Oh my lord, how can I forgot..this is sucks...well today was 1 of my bff birthday...and yes... I unreminderly forgot to took it from my little brother whose keep playing my phone..yet playing games.. aiyahhh....apart he like to hear the "DIa Miliku" songs which currently use as the theme song of Indonesian Sinetron " Cinta Kirana'... well he's still sleep in my parents bedroom as he's still 5 years old... hahahah... the distance of ages... it took more than decade... okkok.... btw to my Friend NurHidayah Ahmad... also the "Clueless' blogger.... SWEET 21 BIRTHDAY.. yes... she is having so much fun though....and I'm sad not to celebrate with her... OMG..... weeee~ so then I dedicate to her about my expression of feeling...

Dear my Beloved Friend,
Dayah,



        Thank you for be such a my friend,
        Thank you for share the laugh, sad and everything goes with it.
        Thank you for being there in my hard time or in my enjoy time...
        Thank you for being such understanding...
        What I need Is a Dayah... No others dayah....I save your name as blair in our frienship...wahahah.... it so you.... well..sorry for not celebrating it with u,,..



*same goes to all my friend muaxx...

monthly till ages

dear blog,

hey u. accidently skip for a month update u.. since then i have so much stories to tell to share with u.. but of course it is very predictable.. btw HELLO DISEMBER.. since this is the month of enjoying to the earth celeberation none other then CHRISTMAS & NEW YEAR... yeahhhhh... holiday...so much time to spend with cheerful since 2 gears i didnt spend/celebrate the joyful celebration with my family..yeahhh.. today there will be a praying ceremony before x'mas..later ill update after this praying session.. so much to share..

ola mi amigo.

dear blog,

    Hey there, Its been a week since I didnt visit u or write anything on you my love canvas.. For a couple days I've been so busy with my routine well as u know.. sleep lah... I just drought of idea what to fill u with... I dont know what to say... well, I try my best to fill u up, regardless to 'Hello' song.. this song make me tears... shait... hahaha. kidding... well... I've just declined my convocation attendance... I got plenty reason to decline it.... it is because it so costly... well I do admit that we do can afford and can really go there but...there is a but... Its my parents money not me...hello...wake up... and they did ask me... but I dont agreed with them...Its so hard when you are so grown up and still asking them for money...come on dude...I dont to be that person.yet I know that it so hard for me not to be attending to this big ceremony... for me this is the never will be happening to me again... so be it... I did finish my diploma...haiyah... I do regret it but... what am I...I still got the Ego..kcuf Ego..  so be it... I know that my friends will ask later... hell yeah...no comment... I'm going to get a job... better job... I will... well... not for this year... lol... ok smile for me then...
*cant upload photo, line is fricking slow

'When I see you, I regret that I have the love for you, I can't get enough but we cant to be together... sorry babe, its over'

SINGING OUT LOUD

Well, singing was my passion... talking about singing. Its been a favourite of mine to SOL at the bathroom.. everywhere... even my friend ask me to shut up... wahahha...I guess my voice are so bad...LOL... but... I want to pursue my passion to the next level... I want to have an own album... I want it so bad.. I could kill somebody who cross my line... hahaha JK... well, I do notice that my dad are so busy with his band group... to me.. perhaps my parents never been a good supporters at all... well, my sibling also know that.. but what good is their never complaining if i was too loud... maybe that shows them how their being so supportive... i appreciate it... I think i will try an audition for a reality show...mmm...I guess I'm so nervous when be in front of of people but then how about the judges... aiyohh.. I was speechless... my mouth barely can't open.. it been glue by those nervous... how I going to make it.... I never have the experience....I do think that I should just give up... but my friend ask me too.... well... I told my self, I should give a shot, why not...well this carrier is about the passion and the money... what important is, the Experience... yes...

Picture upload

It's mine..haha...nothing interesting to wrote on so I decided to upload some of my picture that I just took a few minutes ago...hahaha..with some editing...I know I am not so handsome/beau just like some poeple... But I'm having my time happily.... ;) 

My friend told me this orange picture look like a drug addict...do I..some people told me to change it because this picture scare them out...aiyah..I anit going to change it for anyone else......hahahah

Moving on~

                     Warggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... What Can I say.. I am Happy??? I am Excited? I' m gald to hear a bad news for me.. This news fricking made me melted...choyyy!!! I'm totally an ass.. I'm frustrated, the news that I hope never be ended my day with a sad feeling..but this is my fault, whoever person will never move on if their being dump for over past 3 years.... damn.. It totally my fault, I taught it is a challenge at first, no!! Its only me who felt that way... I gave her the chance to forget me... what did I do.... for god sake, I never ask her to return back to me.. I'll just hope she will be ok and happy with that ass... My friend said that It was my Ego who control me, who let her go... and It is... I just realize it...I stalk her page everyday just to know what she's into.. and It was a stupid thing that I'd ever done... It hurt me a lot... but I will...I will move on... for this 3 years I can, Why can't I do it now...I mean Start it now.... yahooo... With this life journal...I left my feeling to this script..  I never buried this...never be... just for my reminder..... just what I thought ..
*Its a feeling that never faded away, I will remember you, thank you for being the past

Picture upload

Now OR Never ,Haha... Splendid.. I just woke up which is rarely because I always woke up after noon. believe me I can waste my entire day by sleeping... My morning coffee break is now extinction... help me please... be my alarm.. be my reminder...

                      

Wake UP please,Well after I woke up... I immediately heading to television to watch "My GF is Gumiho" its Korean movie episode.. which I like then  head to coffee table to drink up some coffee but it end up with me bring the glass everywhere to the living room.. hahha then I turn the laptop on and online my Facebook a while and then signing into my blog to upload this picture of the day... but The Internet line made my crazy....Fricking bullshit... aiyahh...  haha, the funny part is, during wrote up this blog, I aint brush my teeth yet...

          

Pictures A Day

Mirror,mirror on the wall..I just shoot this a few hours ago... ahahah... it doesn't fulfill my expectation... but it good though.. I'm impress that I capture it by myself even with this dirty little mirror i have... heheh... Its mmm... today I woke up early... I'm very happy as I done it so rarely.. ahhaha... Im wearing nothing on top and I'm wearing brief as you can see and a short cutting jeans on the bottom... with my pretty messy hair... ahahah

        Then, this shooting began till an hour, I'm asking for my sister to give a hand to done this outside... ahaha... but I'm not going to upload it yet.. Later maybe..

           After, done the shooting, I transfer this picture to laptop and this picture caught my attention in a second.. and without any editing I upload this picture... ok...

Picture upload

       Hahah...The size of picture too big and with my worst line ever... It took too much time to upload... so, i figure the solution... and i will upload my picture a day and I will name it 

"Pictures A Day"

R.I.P feeling

dear blog,

      mmm, alam mo miss na miss kita, ayong ka mahal na kita, hahah... refer to Philippines language...this script just a secret, well also me known as secret admire.. this is untold stories that I never done before... this is the 1st time I spill it out... I admire this someone... I dont know since when it happen to me.. I care about my feeling but for sure I never expose it to anyone else include my best friend... Its been a secrecy between me and me...ahaha funny.. I've been waiting the answer for such a long time and I cant barely stand anymore... so I decided to spill this feeling here, and forget it.. because with this I can close the chapter by ending it with a word of mine... feel confuse eh??? ahahah...dont be.. this is my confuse word and as I am writing it down In under emotional way... ahahah.... so let this feeling be faded away by time and lock in this blog and be the script of mine to be remembered... so I am trying to cheer up and for sure I wouldnt do anything bad to myself... ahaha... I mean Kill myself or killing someone... of course not...I am not insane to do such thing... I would regret if told this to that someone.. but for sure now I am happy than before.... so R.I.P feeling.... so sorry for no one would attend this ceremony of you....
* I feel the release.....

LISTEN

    Listen to the song here in my heart

A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within

It's only beginning to find release

Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard

They will not be pushed aside and turned

Into your own all 'cause you won't

Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads

I'm not at home in my own home

And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind

You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you

You don't know what I'm feeling

I'm more than what you made of me

I followed the voice you gave to me

But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened, there is someone here inside

Someone I thought had died so long ago

Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heard

They will not be pushed aside on words

Into your own all 'cause you won't

Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads

I'm not at home in my own home

And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind

You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you

You don't know what I'm feeling

I'm more than what you made of me

I followed the voice you gave to me

But now I've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong

But I'll be moving on

If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart

A melody I start but I will complete

Oh, now I'm done believing you

You don't know what I'm feeling

I'm more than what you made of me

I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I've gotta find my own, my own

Nervous hit me

dear blog,

              fuhh.. I smell something wrong with my application... so frickin' nervous... Oh my Lord, cant wait for the application result in the mean time I dont want to be frustrate about what the result is. I've been unemployment for half year and I just cant stay like this... Its burning me with those blabering from my parents those who force me to continue my studies.... aiyoo... I might get heart attack and I feel the nerve of it.... owh... before that I have to learn CPR by myself.... I dont want to be the useless as i define to those loser.. I dont want to use loser... it is bad name and they are not losers but they just choose the wrong point to start or to end it.... I dont want to be part of them... I want to show to this world what I am going to be.. and I know that I'll going to contribute something.. What I want now is a good result.. I dont want to attend any interview because I am frickin far away.... It cost a lot... so dont be..
*please for me....

Taught to speak

dear blog,

I've been taught to speak, which i learn ABC's since i was green enough... its not what I had to learn but its compulsory and it is the taught that made me  now a days know hot to speak, how to communicate. Somehow the difference kind of language separate us to be different..which i cant stop it... to speak the hardest, to speak the mother tongue language which its un-worldwide... that is why I've been taught English as it has been the lingua franca language means..the international... then now i'learn to speak boldly, to speak what i feel from inside of mine... to speak for people.. So SPEAK it now..or you will regret

*I damn care....

Picture upload

me

its Sunny HOt

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Woof. Woof... well my subject was unimaginable hottest woman in earth... OMG.. its made me drooling all over my place.. rawwr... I just cant stand to look at them...yummy... well I proceed to my TOP 10 Ladies who took the spot..

      
 1) Angelina Jolie

                                               2) Megan Fox
                                               3)AlessandraAmbrossio

                                               4) Jesicca Alba 

                                               5) Raina Hein

                                               6) Gissele Bundchen

                                               7) Joanabelle NG

                                               8) Andrea Fonseka

                                               9) Marion Counter

                                              10) Heart Evangalista

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